Drugs at the age of 15 - Homosexuality is a sin
It seems like I have missed quite a few important steps.. We have to rewind back to us living in Worcester, before moving to Strand and living in a caravan in a caravan park...
Ok, so clearly I couldn't remember it all and I had to ask my sister just to put things in place for me.. This is a very important part of my life. This is where my life took a turn for the worst.
I started using drugs at the age of 15. I was introduced to the drug scene through my sister who at that used as well. She told me about this wonderful little pill called ecstasy, also known as an "E". Oh wow, and what a wonderful pill it was! That pill was magic! It makes you feel things that you never thought in your entire life you would feel (that being said, I was only 15 and didn't know anything better).. It is called a happy drug.
No imagine me, here I am at the age of 15, taking a pill that makes me feel these things. How wonderful and marvelous it was back then.. How little did I know that it would ruin my life.
Here is the correct description..
Methylenedioxymethamphetamine, commonly known as ecstasy, E, or molly, is a psychoactive drug primarily used for recreational purposes. The desired effects include altered sensations, increased energy, empathy, as well as pleasure. When taken by mouth, effects begin in 30 to 45 minutes and last 3 to 6 hours.
The above explains it well. It just doesn't tell you how nice it really is. The altered sensations that you feel is out of this world. It releases your endorphins and makes you feel that you are on top of the world! It makes you forget about anything and everything. When you take it in a club environment with loud music you would dance for hours and hours on end and that is exactly what we did.
My sister and I would drive all the way to Cape Town City Centre to go party at a club called Pure. That drive was an hour away from Worcester. I am not sure how many times that happened. I remember us partying there the one night. So the first time I ever took an E... my sister started off by explaining to me how I was going to feel, what was going to happen with my body, how the music will sound, all the sensations I would feel & she explicitly told me that I was not allowed to leave the club with any man to go anywhere. She also said that if I wasn't feeling well I should tell her & if I was looking for her she would be dancing at the front of the club, close to the speakers. She made it very clear that I WAS NOT allowed to leave the club at all or go to the toilets with anyone.
Before the first night out we went to go buy special rave shoes.. They were expensive, but mom bought them for me after much debate and the fact that they were a little bit too big for me. I was adamant that I wanted them. Obviously she wasn't aware that I was going to a rave with my sister.
So the night finally arrived for us to go out and party! We arrived at the club and went inside. I do not know how they allowed me inside as I was way under age. I didn't have a fake ID, ever. I am tall so I guess it was that and perhaps my sister persuaded the bouncers to let me in, but I couldn't remember it being an issue at all. It was smooth sailing.
Inside was quite a lot of people already dancing and partying. We took our pills and waited for them to kick in. Again I was told not to leave the club for any reason and to keep checking in..
Finally the pill started kicking in! Oh wow! What a glorious feeling of an E starting to activate all my senses in a way that I never experienced before. Feelings I never felt before. Overwhelming and good feelings. My touch was different, my smell was different, my vision was different, my hearing was different & super sensitive to the music. All I wanted to do was dance, dance, dance! I cannot remember if I was smoking yet, but I was thirsty as hell and I oh wow, the feeling was out of this world! Chewing beechies gum and sucking on a lollipop was never this much fun! Anything sweet was yummy. My skin was soft and so nice.
Please remember that I am telling my story as it is. I am sharing what I felt, how I felt it, when I felt it and so on. NO, I do not give the devil/satan the glory. I need to make people aware of the dangers of drugs and how easy it is to get trapped by his lies and deceit.
The devil is a liar.
Getting back to the night at the club. My sensations were crazy! I was having fun and enjoying every minute of it. I met a guy there.. I cannot remember his name. He was the sweetest guy ever. So caring and adorable. He took care of me the entire evening. We danced together, we laughed together, we sat together and just had fun. He was in the Navy, based in Simons Town. He did not once ask me to leave the club to go with him somewhere. He was such a gentleman. Born and raised in Durban. We became friends that evening. The party went on until goodness knows what time in the morning. We didn't go home immediately.. We had to wait for the pill to pass first before we could go home. We couldn't allow my folks to see us in the state we were.
Taking drugs isn't the same as drinking. You are never drunk or so out of it that you don't or can't remember what happened. This is if you use the drugs that I used to use. I never used the drugs that I classified as the low class drugs, ie; heroin, crack, mandrax. I never used a syringe to inject anything into me. I also never smoked anything drug related. I didn't do those types of drugs, thank God for that. For some reason I saw them as toxic. More toxic than the drugs I was taking. At this point in my story I was only taking ecstasy.
So young.. So innocent.. So much to learn..