Jesus, The Love of My Life and the Savior of my Soul - Long overdue
Firstly, I want to give God all the Glory, honor and praise for His grace yet another day. I want to praise Him because He is worthy to be praised! I want to praise Him for life & breath! I want to praise Him for my health & well-being! I want to praise Him for giving me this opportunity to write about my life, my salvation, my passion for Him and everything He is doing for me. This is a new day of a new week of the rest of my life. Through His grace we will take one day at a time and move forward in His promises. Still struggling to wake up early in the morning, but I got up. Not as early as I wanted to, but still early enough to have quiet time and talk to my precious loving Father. The Love of my life and the Savior of my soul. Jesus, the sweetest Name I know. The Name above all other names. There are so many things I want to say. So many things that I want to talk about. It has taken me 2 weeks after finalizing my website to get the courage to start writing this blog. I was frightened, I was scared, I panicked. So many thoughts went rushing through my head. Thoughts of rejection, thoughts of fear, thoughts of what if and so many other thoughts. I cannot even describe what went on in my head. The devil obviously tried scaring me in every possible way he thought he could, but he did not succeed. I was under so much spiritual attack it was crazy. I think one of the biggest fears I had was the fear of making a mistake. The fear of failing. The fear of rejection. What comforted me was that God that kept telling me that He is God and I have nothing to fear & that He is with me every step of the way. The word of God also clearly states in 2 Timothy 1:7 - For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
The past two weeks haven't been fun, but I praise God that we are here today. I know in my heart that through this blog & by His grace, God will change millions of lives. God's Word says that we are saved by grace through faith in Christ Jesus and not by our own efforts or works (Ephesians 2:8-9). ... Grace alone means that God loves, forgives, and saves us not because of who we are or what we do, but because of the work of Christ. There's so much going on in my personal life and it is scary. Now I have to write about everything that hurt me and my past. Really? Now? Don't we have to put the past behind us and forget about it? Move on? Well . . . . . .
You see, everything in my life is about God, for God and through God. It is by His grace that I have been saved. It is by His grace that I was delivered from homosexuality, drugs, alcohol, depression, anxiety, lies, deceit, adultery and so much more. Wow, for 33 years of my life I believed the lie of the devil. I believed him over God and God's word. My life perished. I made so many mistakes. Countless mistakes. Stupid mistakes. Oh how thankful I am that Jesus Christ died on the cross and rose from the dead for my sins. Thank you Jesus!
This is real. So many things that's going to surface. God, only you can help me. Layer by layer, like an onion I will be pealed. Am I ready for this is the question? I don't think I'll ever be ready, but I have to do this. God's coming is near. Everything that He said in the Bible will happen is busy unfolding right in front of our eyes. God's coming is very near. So ready or not, I have to tell my story. I have to get my story out there to try and help others. I have to try and give hope to the lost. Even if I can help one person with this blog it would be enough for me.
There's so many people out there that's caught up in the devils lies.
Don't lose hope, God is real, God still saves and most of all, God loves you more than you can ever imagine. It doesn't matter how bad your life may seem or how much sin you have, if you are gay, straight, bisexual, transgender, brown, white, black, indian, a drug addict, an alcoholic, an adulterer, a fornicator, a thief, a murderer or whatever, GOD LOVES YOU SO MUCH AND HE WILL TAKE YOU AS YOU ARE.
This is true.. God loves you so much. If only I realized sooner how different my life would have been. Thank you Jesus! Thank you so so so so so much! You saved me from the devils snare.. Thank You Daddy... My vocabulary is not big enough to say thank you enough. I am going to leave you with these lyrics to a song .... (by the way, I love music so this will happen a lot).
Thank You...
How do I say Thank You, Lord For the way that You love And the way that You come
For all that You've done All that You'll do My hearts pours out Thank You
You don't have to come But You always do You show up in splendor And change the whole room
You don't have to come But You always do You show up in splendor And change the whole room
How do I say Thank You, Lord For the life that You gave And the cross that You bore
For the love You poured out To ransom my soul My heart pours out This thankful song
You don't have to come But You always do You show up in splendor And You change the whole room
You don't have to come But You always do You show up in splendor And You change the whole room
You walk through all my walls Conquered my shame Stepped into my past Filled my world with grace You didn't have to come But You wanted to
You walk through all my walls Conquered my shame Stepped into my past Filled my world with grace You didn't have to come But You wanted to
You don't have to come But You always do You're right here in Your splendor Standing in this room
I see the fire in Your eyes I see the mercy in Your smile I feel the fury of Your love all around us
'Cause You don't have to come But You always do You show up in splendor And You change the whole room
You don't have to come But You always do You show up in splendor And You change the whole room
There's a King in the room With fire in His eyes And redemption in His heart