Today was a very hard day. For me, as a person, I have never been in a situation like this before. My emotions and feelings are out of this world. I generally don't cry. I don't ask for anything, unless it is really important. I would rather go without or suffer than ask for help in any way.
Today was different. Today I had to put my pride in my pocket and I had to face reality. I had to ask for help from family for something that was so embarrassing to start with. Something that never should have happened in the first place. I have been on a roller coaster ride for the past 5 years. To make things worse, I lost everything in 2018 and it has been a challenging time ever since. Things have been hard and difficult. If one problem stops, then the next one starts. It's been an absolute whirlwind. Today the whirlwind hit again. It could have turned into a tornado if I did not humble myself, put my pride in my pocket and asked for help.
For the past week the following scripture has been thrown in my face.. Literally thrown in my face..
"No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgement you shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is from Me, says the Lord." - Isaiah 54:17 NKJV
The NIV says:
"No weapon forged against you will prevail, and you will refute every tongue that accuses you. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and this is their vindication from Me, declares the Lord." - Isaiah 54:17 NIV
The message bible says:
"But no weapon that can hurt you has ever been forged. Any accuser who takes you to court will be dismissed as a liar. This is what God's servants can expect. I'll see to it that everything works out for the best." God's decree. - Isaiah 54:17
What does the above message actually mean to us as Christians?
'No weapon formed against you shall prosper' - This is not a promise that you will not receive attacks, or that you will not be struck by a weapon (ie; tests, trials, tribulation, suffering of any kind, but as we know we are born to trouble (job 5:7). The promise is that it WILL NOT PROSPER.
We are constantly under spiritual attacks. When the devil is threatened by you in any way, he will attack in every way he possibly can. he does this to get you sidetracked from your focus. he wants you to fail. he doesn't want you to enhance or succeed in any way, so he uses all kinds of party tricks for you to surrender and give in to him.
To be a Christian, a true Christian and follow in God's footsteps isn't a game. It is a very serious task. It is very hard and not something we should take lightly. Not everyone who calls on the Name of the Lord shall be saved. We are human and we need to try and walk in God's footsteps. This means that we have to act like Him, talk like Him, love like Him, care like Him, we have to emphasize and so forth. We have to be different than the rest.
What I faced today was hard and difficult. I was ashamed. I was humiliated. I was scared. I was hurt. I was lame. I was distorted. My mind was racing. I felt sick and wanted to vomit. All because of my actions. A choice I made months ago for survival purposes almost got me in deep poop, BUT by His grace and mercy, He has come to the rescue once again. Such true characteristics of a real Father.
Once again God proved Himself to me. His promises are real. His word is real. We can always go back and find comfort in that.
It doesn't matter what you are facing today. If you are a precious child of the Most High God, Jesus Christ, you will never ever be alone. There would never be a single thing that you would have to go through without knowing that He is right there next to you to help you.
For my "family" that came to the rescue for me today. May God bless you abundantly. May He bless you so much just because of the kindness you showed toward me.
I know that I haven't seen you in years & that we hardly speak, but I do not have enough words to say thank you for what you did for me today. I appreciate it more than you would ever know. And just so that you know.. Things ARE going to change and things WILL change. God has a plan for me and what He has spoken over my life WILL come to pass even if it doesn't look like it now.
Remember that pride is not a Godly characteristic trait. He doesn't like pride at all. We have to stay humbled all the time. This was just another way to show me His grace..
Ps, Thank You daddy.. I love You more than life itself..
All my love..
Daughter of Elohim